It’s been quite a while since my last post. I’ve gone through some rather “funky” transitions that are too complex to try and explain in words so I won’t do that here. Besides, it’s experience that teaches and not the words that describe the theories. So, you’ll just have to learn from yours and yours alone … But, I will still share with you my thoughts. Who knows, maybe I am sent as one of your “spirit guides”, being a “spiritual motivator” of sorts?
One of the things that has proven to me how amazing this life we have is, has its root based in contrast. For instance, we do not recognize “light” until it springs out of and dispels darkness. The contrast between the two amplifies each one’s identity. The same can be said regarding the distinction between the colors of a rainbow. While the dividing lines may be somewhat blurry, the core of each is distinctly different and true to their being. We get to know what we want by experiencing what we don’t want. That’s what helps bring clarity into our lives.
As I have mentioned in previous posts, I found myself in a dilemma of sorts trying to come to grips with a contrast between how I wanted to feel and the reality of how I felt … Essentially coming to conjure up two women into my world. One with whom I married and have raised a family with and another with whom I would really love to do the same even more … Much more!
Anyway, what has come to my attention is that “prayer” is an extremely powerful tool which does get answered. Though the answer isn’t always recognized, there is one nonetheless … Believe it or not. The way I see it, considering the fact that as the “breath of life” was breathed into our ancient ancestors Adam and Eve, that “breath” came from the innermost space within The Creator. This implies that a portion of “It” was thus implanted within the bodies of these first humans … The “soul” … an extension of God.
So in a sense, we, as descendants of those first human beings are alive because of the existence within us the energy from which ALL was created. When we ask for something, we are likely to somehow get it simply because it is as if our “Source” is giving in to Itself … Can you real-ize that? Would “It” deny itself what “It” wants and needs? Quite a powerful concept when you think about it! We were created and are meant to be human likenesses of God!! Unfortunately many of us do not identify with that. The important thing to keep in mind however is to be very clear about what it is you really want and in fact, need. Things always work out for us when we let our path find us!
I remember, almost 28 years ago, asking The Holy One to provide me with a woman that would be suitable for me to marry and be a good mother to our children. Not a bad request at all … my request was granted and I was very happy about that. However, with the passage of time, I came to realize that though my life was blessed by her accompanying me on that wonderful path, I was not truly bound “contractually” to the woman who I could recognize and feel as my “true” mate. There was a pronounced recognition of genuine incompatibility where complementary action won’t happen.
As it happens with me, my nature of being attempts to focus mainly on the positive side of things in the equation more than the negative … And I tend to stay with something (or someone in this case) that doesn’t really serve me in the ideal way I would prefer. I held myself in a job that was similar maybe longer than I should have too as an example. I say “maybe” because it could be that my time there was actually what was necessary for me to learn and develop into what I eventually did. It may be the same thing with the woman who has up to now been my wife.
Something begins to stir within me though that causes me to yearn for better at some point along this journey through life. It “comes to a head” one day, then “bursts” … In this case, the feeling that I was sorely without yet desiring my true mate. The woman who called herself my wife was not the “real deal” … Though she tried as best she could. Sadly though, I could not rid myself of the thought and feeling the tremendous lack. It pervaded my being and even brought me to tears.
I went out into an open field and with eyes raised to Heaven, poured out my heart and cried for an answer to my problem. “Either show me that I was to accept that this woman is to remain “mine” for the rest of my life or provide me with another and make it such that peace would reign between all involved”.
What happened within a week later, my eyes were “opened” to capture the presence of a woman who somehow illuminated my soul. Long story short, I had again been given an answer.
Life is full of surprises. One only has to be open to witness the many wonders and miracles that occur around us every moment of every day. There is no shortage of fascinating things that can and do happen for us. Just be aware of your “divinity” … For we are all samples of “God-ness” … Spiritual beings of goodness in the guise of physical beings that have the ability to create our realities by connecting with the energy that we are and its source. Life is truly amazing … Make it fantastic!